Yesterday, i ate my first painkiller due to menstrual pain. I didnt take the usual pink one, i simply take 1 painkiller and eat. then, scolded by mum. She said the one i took is very strong, even doctor only gave her 2 biji. What to do, when she told me, i think the painkiller already digested.

What i wanna emphasize is, since when my will power is so weak? I used to cry or shout or bite myself, but i insist no painkiller. I scare i rely on it. So why i took it? I dont know, i felt so weak yesterday, mentally weak. I felt like die lo. I know i am damn stupid to think so. But, sometimes i have all these weird weird thought appeared. But, dont worry. I am not easily beaten off. How the thought come up i cant control, but how i do i can control. And i think die is the stupidest way to escape from reality. I still wanna eat a lot nice food and travel to more countries! haha.

today paper, PA1. i felt so emo when doing that. I really like simply tikam lo. The question asked in a way that i dont know the answer. Wth, my classmate said it is easy. I felt like crying when he said that. My mum said, nvm la. A- enough d la. lol...

Next paper, math 1. I hope i will be smiling walking out when everyone said it is damn hard. haha. If others said easy and i said hard for this paper, send me back to form 5 then. haha.

no hp. the weirdest part is no snsd mv, no snsd song, no snsd pic=( seriously, hp is just so important because of this reason. haha.

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